MYSTERY THOUGHTS+

If you have feelings for someone, either be brave enough to express it to them or be brave enough to watch someone else do it.

Sometimes when you meet someone, there's a click. I dont believe in love at first sight but I believe in that click.

Sunday 16 February 2014

Happenings + Fifth page of Love

What up people !
It's been awhile since my last update, I know, I KNOW ~~~~
Something happened since my last update, like really, something BIG and LIFE changing happened to me. At least that's what I think of.

As you can see, I skipped from Third page of Love to Fifth page of Love, where is the Forth page of Love then? lol great question, it's under my draft list :P I was meant to post something up but then I've been dragging day by day and slowly, I forgot what I was suppose to type /post , so I just left it in the draft list. But no worries, I'll talk about a little bit about what's happening on Forth page of Love in a while.

Well, Its 2014 now ! (Obviously, its already February) and I'm in my second year/second semester now :D  and in the second semester of my course, we are given an opportunity of 2 pathways to continue in either Illustration or Animation Option module, that means I can do animation course for my second semester, how cool is that xD and by the decisions I made this time, I can choose to finish my final year (year 3) in either Illustration or Animation, If I choose to go to Animation to do my final year, my degree will be Degree in Illustration & Animation ; and if I choose to go back to Illustration , my degree will be Degree in Illustration only. I'm thinking of continuing my final year doing Animation, it's digital base after all, I still love animation. (Actually I kinda regret why I didnt listen to my dad about doing animation in the first place. Screw myself really. ) And guess what? Because of this I've been getting closer to Kim and Bethan :D because they are doing Animation Option as well, how great is that xD

So, how's my life here?
My life here is pretty good actually. As Phyl( or Winson, he decides to change his name) said I am an Introvert . Meaning, I like being alone but doesn't like being lonely and do not like to entertain long hours and do not like to hangout in a huge crowd. Basically its true. Anyway, I made new friends in this new semester, not only that, I'm kinda getting use to saying hi to random people, smiling to strangers along the hall way, helping strangers in need, well I meant in Uni, still not doing so well on the streets, haha, I guess I'm okay with it for now.

I've been going out with Seraphine quite alot last month, and she stayed over at my place too, she's been telling me about her crush and all, interesting, but sometimes gets on my nerves because she still need some advice on how to deal with feelings and such, I personally doesnt like her so-called crush of hers that much, because I think that guy should be a mature man to set things right between Seraphine and himself. That's just my opinion, sometimes I feel pity for her, but the good thing about Seraphine is she never stop smiling and laughing, that's what I like about her/hanging out with her, we can be so stupid and silly sometimes, lol she is definitely my first ever best-friend since I came to Bristol. A friend that I want to hangout with, a friend who I can call anytime to meet with, feels great :)

Okay my projects, this semester, I have currently 3 projects, one is the pro practice project with Alex, and second is the animation option module project (task to create a 90 seconds short animation clip/film) , and third  is this visual culture essay (also the one project I pay very least attention to) I hope I could handle them all well/on time, because my last minute bad habit still hasn't change yet, Jack's been mumbling about it a last 2 weeks :I (sorry ! that's just how I brought up to be, screw you M'sia ! I'll change :I )

Well, life's update so far for now, Oh and I will be updating a new blog for my Pro Prac project, documenting my artwork and such, its different compare to Deviantart, my Deviantart is too messy :I
I'm gonna put up the link at the side once the new blog is up :)

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Okay ! Love life, my love life .... Hmmm, don't really how should I start or where should I start, but I'll try my best to get things summarize as possible, for my Forth page of Love.

The last thing I mentioned about my love life in here is Jack and I going out and such, on IMVU, and now we've been keeping contact into more social media network, like Skype and  Facebook , Skype only lasted a few weeks, after we added each other's Facebook, we talked/chat more often on FB. And frankly , now we didnt go on IMVU anymore, and plus we had a huge fight after I came back to Bristol from the Christmas break in Msia. We argued big time, and I kinda broke down quite hard by that time, I deleted my precious IMVU-Zen's account, even though I told him after I dated him I seldom went on to Zen's account but then so happen everytime he thinks I'm always sneaking onto Zen's account while he's not online/around. I mean come on, really?? I went on Zen almost everyday back then, doesnt mean that Im talking to anyone, and plus I already stop talking to every close friend I have on Zen's account, I bet now they are wondering where the hell did Zen go. Doesnt matter, something just have to end, I know Zen's ending someday too.

One thing is for sure that Jack has the power to make me delete Zen's account once and for all, I can tell that he's the one for me. If I wasnt serious about him I wouldnt give a shit if he said he's jealous about me going on Zen's account.

Anyway ~~~ I found out something about Jack, like a huge secret of his, that I have suspected before but I never want to believe or search the answer for, well , he told me, last year, after our 5th month, I was kinda shock and doesnt really want to believe it, its not because I couldnt accept what he told me, its because I couldnt accept him keeping it from me after we've been going out for almost half a year, I mean really, I love him so much that everything aside its just a bonus, I love him for him, not how or who he is.
The only thing Im worrying about is my family pressure that'll put on him, he deserve something better, I dont want him to take any pressure from my family... I just hope my family will understand .

I totally accept everything about him, not even a single thing I thought about that I couldn't accept, because I love him, so much . If I don't have the family pressure behind me, I would be so happy to tell my parents everything about it without worrying about if they refuse me to be with him.

Well, the last thing about our IMVU life is, he proposed to me ♥ I gotta tell ya, even though its just a virtual proposal, you will still felt like you've grown up a little and taking responsibilities in this relationship, Im really touched ♥

And so far, we haven't really get into voice call/ webcam chats yet, as expected like always, still type chatting. But we did exchange our phone numbers, so that we could text each other when Im outside without any internet, but now I sign up a phone plan with my UK number that has unlimited internet access, so I can go on to facebook and talk to him anytime, but sometimes when the internet is stuffing up we still text one and other.

He wakes me up every morning ♥ although sometimes I get grumpy because of that, but get to think of it, getting to wake your lover / being wake by your love is one of the sweetest things you can ever experience ♥ Thank you for staying with me all this while Boo, even though Im so hard to handle >_< ♥ But as long as you know no matter how grumpy I get, I still love you ♥ Sometimes I got busy, and didnt have enough time for him , he'll get upset and pout , LOL how cute ♥♥♥ I told him I'll try to make time for him as much as possible, because I still have to go to Uni, and such, I might not have 24 hours for him.

We talked out (after a fight too ) about how much alone time I need for my work and for myself, and we agree on everything, giving each other some alone time sometimes, but still get to talk to each other everyday , saying good morning, welcome home and good night to each other ♥ that's just so sweet to do ♥

Oh and Valentines just passed 2 days ago, I made him a Date Jar and a Valentines card I designed myself, and I sent it along with some little gifts I bought for him from UK, hope he'll receive them sooner or later xD Im so excited ! Because I didnt tell him I sent something to him :x its a surprise ~~~ It cost me about £40+ in total for 2 package/parcel to sent our to Australia, because one package its to heavy (over 2kg) , it'll cost me £60-70 if I insisted to send it in one package. I chose the express mail, hope it'll arrive soon.

One thing that pisses me off is he doesnt know his own address, I end up have to ask for his friend's address in order to give it to him, I sent it to his friend's house, and his friend will take it to him, just like his mom send things to him, well thanks to his sister Mary, I got the address and did all the sendings. I just hope my jar is still in one piece when it reaches there >___<


Well, so far that's it guys ! I'll try to keep things updated ! Just ask me anything if you feel like it :D Once again, I miss you guys so much !! Wynd, Phyl/Winson/ Yiling !  and of course my family (especially my dogs ) so much too ♥ haha