And then our conversation starts:
What brings you into IMVU anyway?
same shit as anyone else. i cant be what i want to be in real..
I see.
Pretty much everyone join because of the same reason.
Cant be what you want to be or who you want to be in real.
It gets frustrating
how is that frustrating?
No I mean frustrating as in I cant be what I want to be in real lol
can i.... ask you something..
:x
Sure
one of these days ill get up the guts to tell you what my issue with rl is >.<
You know you can tell me anything . Like literally everything.
yea but it's been a deal breaker for almost everyone..
and... i just.. idk..
it's big. and. i don't want to be recognized as that.
I believe there's much worst than whatever your case is
Take your time , Im not going anywhere. If you feel like telling me by then just buzz me.
no i should tell you.
lol
i just dont know how to say it. you. um. probably know. or have a feeling about it.
everyone else did :x
but im. transexual.
That's it ?
...i havent had surgeries yet
and i. was born female.
That's not really a deal breaker you know =v=
You know, Jack's transgender too.
transgender and transexual. are two. very different things.
transgender has been turned into an umbrella term. or it wouldnt be.
Oh :x
Well Jack calls himself that, because he did his top surgery.
transgender includes. everything out of the norm. such as. genderfluid. people who flow between genders. it used to be recognized as. people going from one sex to another. but then everything else got shoved underneath that word as its definition. so its hard to differentiate
-throws my arms around you- youre so perfect... you really have no idea.
i havent had top surgery yet.
Brian
You have no idea what I am.
Im not perfect at all.
you are to me.
You should be proud of yourself for having the guts to tell me .
i dont know if ill ever do... bottom surgery. v.v it's just not worth it now.. it would never be. like the real thing you know?
technology isnt advanced enough
Do you really need it ?
i also feel. bleh. about saying it. because it seems to be the new"trend" nowadays. ive been like this since i was a kid. always wanting to look like a boy. dress like a boy. do things boys do. i've been through many therapists because my parents couldnt just accept it. they thought something was wrong with me. and. with further testing and bloodwork and scans. i have a fully male brain. i dont have a functioning reproductive system because my body produces too much testosterone to make it possible to function.
and it'd be nice to. but. its not worth the money with how it is now.
That's why you dont talk much about yourself.
Yea, it's really not worth to risk it.
the last two.. "relationships" of mine. i always got this. sinking feeling. when i told them. like. i knew it wasnt okay like they said it was. i know its not right to not tell anyone right off. but. i am. a male. i dont want to be recognized as a girl.
Dont say silly things.
Feeling better now ?
can i ask your secret?
and yes.. much better
Hmm
Im not perfect like you said I am, I might be perfect in here, but if you drag me out from here, Im a completely different person.
i dont think thats true.
Im a girl , Im not a guy.
Im a bisexual girl to be precise.
like i said before. you take away. all the judgement. and. people are more real than ever.
you think that would bother me?
....I thought it's a HUGE matter....
-raises eyebrow- it'd be... kind of hypocritical of me to flip on you for that -nuzzles-
just explains why you can understand me so well
lol, maybe.
im pansexual. i dont care what you got in your pants. especially on imvu. theres no way to KNOW people are really what they say. biologically anyway. so. i accepted that. for myself. and. personality. is all that matters
so i have my question to ask now. that i was gonna ask earlier
Sure
are you and Ven the same person?
Aha..... that..... Yea......
it kinda made me think when you told Jake that you'd send Ven to represent you..
Like he said he's going to find me, that's just impossible
But I really do know a friend name Sean, that's out of my prediction
So even he ask Sean about me Sean wouldnt even know who is he talking about.
it just didnt make sense to me because. why would you send someone he doesnt know to meet with him when hes your friend
Sean is a very popular name xD
=v= ha.....
Yea, probably.
I created this account first, Ven's account comes afterwards. Because I thought Im getting sick with "Role playing a guy" .
Its pretty stupid.
And to cover up my identity, I have to play 2 roles so that non will suspect.
well your secret is safe with me. -rubs middle finger all over Jake's face-
lol
Meh, he's not a problem to me at all.
"i have a better chance with him" my ass
I can come clean to him anytime.
x'D
Im guessing he's bi too
well considering he talks about his ex gf
Arent you afriad if he knows the real me he'll come after me as well ? >v>
honestly? yes. but. if i know you as well as i think i do..
you won't let him
xD
Trust me, you know me damn well.
because. you have no trust for him. you wouldn't give away a secret you've kept for years just like that to someone you just met
Its just the matter of me opening up myself to you or not.
Anything more to ask? :)
no more questions though -wraps my arms around you- you're still Zen to me. that won't change
and thank you. for opening up to me. it really means a lot.
you don't have to hide from me..
:)
Just so you know, everything I said yesterday , I meant it.
I was so afraid if I told you this secret I'll lost this friendship
and i meant everything i said.. and yes i did add the "i dont care if your male or female" on purpose. because. i had already suspected the Ven thing..
lol :x...
Oh and one more thing
you are. you. parts dont matter. irl it'd be different ofc. but not like. feelings wise. just. sexual wise? but as long as you wanna have a dick. thats what youll have.
lol Yea
one more thing?
The photo I showed you before isnt me
well i kinda guessed<w<
xD
same for me though..
=v= ~
Well you got me on that.
lol
my eyes are blue btw :x
i just knew. the eye color in what i showed you. was brown
Aha
Thats me
still have perfect hair -pouts-
you're. wow. amazingly pretty.
lol
Alright I gotta go to bed
A few hours is still time
-long sighs and pouts-
looks like we'll be getting the same amount of sleep xD
-giggles- thank you again. for everything.
im so hyped up right now
Dream of me, ask the nightmares to fuck off :P
-kicks em to the curb-
Night :')
good night
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